good &bad.

i missed a part of gossip girl. i'm really sad :( i missed 20 min. ugh pretty pissed off but, i'm okay. you know what, i don't really give anymore, there's really no point in waiting no matter how much i want it, i don't have its attention and, i always feel like i don't deserve it. i give up. whatever. i can find other things. it's cause when you bash it, i fall back but, this is seriously a sign not to even go near it. yeah, i'm pathetic.



i really really love little notes from people makes me feel special. makes me feel like they really really care because they took their time to write it. when i write i letter it makes me feel like the letters really long but its really a half page. idk letters make me feel really really good & really healthy.

i needa start on my homework its 9.

i got a new duffel and goggles and everything cept a suit. i really need a suit. thank you, david. <333


nart, i hope you feeel better.
i hope i feel better too..